How do I even put it into words?

I sit here struggling; not knowing where to start.  A blurry mess it was.  I can tell you my sob story as to how we got to this point but that would be uncooth; one of those things in a persons life that one dares not talk about due to the unrelenting pain.  But how do I not start with that.  A reader must know the past anquish to even find any of the awkwardness reasonable.  But, I guess,  all reason is put aside for the best reason of all: Family.